Wednesday, August 29, 2007♥8/29/2007 09:28:00 PM
Today was the toughest day I ever had in OT.
I felt so DEMORALIZED, FRUSTRATED, DISAPPOINTED and STUPID, DUMP!!!
I was reprimanded and scolded AGAIN by a particular person. Sad to say that she's my preceptor......
Up till now, I know I'm doing quite well in OT, be it circulating or scrubbing. But, whenever I'm double scrubbed with her, I would behave clumsily and nervously. As she keeps on pushing me, rushing me, reprimanding that I'm not fast enough, not good enough. What pierces me hard is, she even scolded me like nobody business in front of a nasty surgeon!!!!
She likes to demonstrate certain procedures to me without letting me get a hand on to it and expexts me like a marvellous recorder which can memorize all the steps for just one demonstration. When it's my turn to show what I know, she wants me to do it PERFECTLY!!!!
Excuse me, I'm just 3 weeks plus in OT okay.....How can you ask me to run without learning to crawl?!?!?!?!?!?!
Only with her, only with her, ONLY WITH HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Fuck!
I'm not blaming her, in fact our relationship has been going well other than scrubbing. I just don't find her teaching works effectively.
I can confidently announced that I'm a fast learner and so far I'm doing pretty well. But I just couldn't understand the reasons why I'm unworthy to her.
I feel so STUPID.
When I did something correctly and timely, there's no encouragement and compliment at ALL!!! My compliments are all from surgeon and sister......Other than her....
Definitaly I can take scolding and negative comments very well. Only with that then I could know what's my weak points and to learn from that. But, hello! You have to scold reasonably!!
You want me to scrub perfectly, you should let me practice more! Rather than you ask for perfection on things which I do it for the first time only!
That's unreasonable!
That's ridiculous!
That's overbearing!
Totally engrossed,
Scribbled by Valerie, pen down at
8/29/2007 09:28:00 PM
Friday, August 24, 2007♥8/24/2007 10:09:00 PM
Is it a blessing that I don't need to doll up myself early in the weekdays before heading for work?
Friday, which is the day I go back to my home at JB. Well, I was wearing a short and a t-shirt, and that's it.
Without any make up, other than my eye brow drawn.
A very ORIGINAL Valerie, in fact a bit hideous
So my mom was asking me,
"You wear like that go to work arh?"
My answer was,
"Of course, or else what do you expect my attire is when I need to change into scrub suit after reaching hospital?"
And most of the time, I have left with not much energy to wonder around.
While formal attire is essential for my older sister.
I could still remember one month before her commencement of work, she was practically hunting her office outfits and foot wears around.
I guess, make-up is her everyday doing as well.
Well, woman loves to doll herself up and so do I.
But I just too lazy to color up my appearance each time after I drag myself out of bed.
The only chance I get to dress up dolly is weekends.
So, tomorrow is a Saturday and I will be joining my colleagues for KTV sessions. Tomorrow, nice nice la....wahahaha
Therefore, the benefits of uniformed career are: save money on clothing, save time from dolling-up.
Advantages of working in Operating Theatre: no washing of uniforms needed.
Totally engrossed,
Scribbled by Valerie, pen down at
8/24/2007 10:09:00 PM
♥8/24/2007 09:49:00 PM
FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY~!!!!!!!!!!!
Initially I was drained out. Was it due to the gravity that my eye lips were closing up? Suddenly my eye lips were so heavy that I could half open my eyes.
Checking blogs of friends has always been a habit everytime I surf. Happened to tumble in SingMin's blog.....and....
SHE HAS FOUND HER LOVE~!!!!!!
Instantaneously there's no more lethargy in me, there's only happiness.
Finally she has overcome her unforgotten, and her suffering has bloomed.
I'm smiling from the bottom of my heart.
I hope they will have an eternal love and he will always make her the happiest woman....
SINGMIN: HE'S HANDSOME.....Good Catch~!!!
Hahaha...
Totally engrossed,
Scribbled by Valerie, pen down at
8/24/2007 09:49:00 PM
Saturday, August 18, 2007♥8/18/2007 06:58:00 PM
Ever wondering why do people blog?
Are they just following the trend and blog blindly day by day?
As for me, NO.
I do blogging purposefully.
GUESS????????
I blog for my friends.
Due to our occupied schedules, we could hardly contact each others frequently.
Busy with working, sleeping, working and sleeping again.
Nearly no life for me.
Nevertheless, we online.
And that's the only way which link us together.
By dropping a simple greeting message is enough to light up my day.
Thanks you, my friends.
For this, I will update my blog more often.
Just for you only.....
Totally engrossed,
Scribbled by Valerie, pen down at
8/18/2007 06:58:00 PM
Wednesday, August 15, 2007♥8/15/2007 08:06:00 PM
Phew!
One day has passed.
First day I was assigned to OR 3(Operating Room No.3) while my previous assignment was OR 7. Why did they suddenly take me out? It's because they is a super major case---liver transplant undergoing in OR 7 and sister wanted to minimize the traffic flow.
So I was lucky enough to have a very senior staff nurse in OR 3. She trained us to be independent, wanted us to do everything personally with her guidance.
Seriously I prefer her way of teaching rather than you teach and teach but don't let me hands on.
And I was able to scrub up for a major case.
New experience again. Ha...
I'm looking forwards tomorrow, wondering which case I wil be scrubbing up.
Hee.....
Totally engrossed,
Scribbled by Valerie, pen down at
8/15/2007 08:06:00 PM
Sunday, August 12, 2007♥8/12/2007 11:00:00 AM
Nowadays I blog without any inspiration.
Perhaps this is due to my repeatitious boring routine.
By the way, I've started my scrubbing experience for one week, to be exact it's only four days.
I remember the case I last scrubbed is simoidoscopy/ harmorrhoidectomy (A bit too chim?? layman term is excision of piles) with my dicipline sister double scrubbed with me.
Ever wondering why sister would bother to double scrub over a minor case which usually last for about or less than 30 minutes?
It's because of surgeon!
The surgeon is a high speed professor who does not wait for more than 5 seconds and if you delay more than that, you will experience shoutings all over the theatre!
Frankly speaking, I was still unable to assist surgeon independently.
However, I would buck up myself, try to do multi-tasking, enrich myself with medical knowledge.
Luckily I am quite a fast learner. You just have to demonstrate once or twice, and I would more or less get the tips of it.
I will gear up myself to prepare for the challenges!
Not forgetting to become more thick-skinned, which is resistable towards reprimanding, scolding and shouting.
Also, I have to train my tears glands to be more inactive.
You know why..
Totally engrossed,
Scribbled by Valerie, pen down at
8/12/2007 11:00:00 AM
Thursday, August 09, 2007♥8/09/2007 02:39:00 PM
Couldn't remember when was my last entry, probably I'm still in shock.
Yes. Sister gave me a shock yesterday.
We were being orientated to our assigned discipline yesterday. She handed each of us a file with all the checklists and guidelines to us. Half way through the orientation, I found out that I didn't have an important page and sister went to get me a copy.
Just when sister's shadow appeared in the far end of central corridor, I could hear her voice loud and clear:
"Valerie, just now I walked pass theatre 15, you go and scrub for the Inguinal Hernia NOW!"
Was my ears stucked with ear wax?? Did I hear wrongly? For the first time I wish Valerie wasn't my name.
Culture shock to me....
Who would anticipate that during the midst of orientation you have to scrub up for the 2nd time and be the FIRST to be assessed by discipline sister?!?!
No choice, die die have to do it.
When I stepped into the theatre, I realized the one who double scrubbed with me was my preceptor. For godness sake, no wonder sister would ask me to go on field la.....!!
God blessed that my surgeon was very patient and my preceptor was excellent in teaching. She was like a surgeon assistant, standing at the opposite site to instruct me which instrument to pass the next.
So much experience required and I knew that I could never be like her unless I learn through experience.
And I want to be outstanding. Therefore a lots of hardwork should be done.
After the operation, preceptor briefed me.
In GS Colorectal, speed is their main principle. I am expected to be FAST, SHARP and ACCURATE.
Ya. I clearly understand that the path which I'm leading would be extremely tough and full of obstacle.
I hope I can overcome them.
Totally engrossed,
Scribbled by Valerie, pen down at
8/09/2007 02:39:00 PM
Sunday, August 05, 2007♥8/05/2007 08:14:00 PM
-LATE ENTRY- 1st August 2007
Happy Nurses Day!!!
First time I celebrated this special occasion, as I'm a licensed staff nurse and got to enjoy those celebration programmes specially arranged by NUH.
Besides the sumptous buffet offered by NUH, there's sourveniors and pink rose given as a token of appreciation.
Knocked off at 6pm, going to meet Darling after work! Yeah... So nice to have Darling.... *wink*
While I was awaiting Darling at the main lobby, someone hugged me from behind. I was wondering who's the idiot guy molested me.....IT WAS DARLING~
He surprised me with a bouqet of Daisy flowers for Nurses Day~!!!!! I love the pink Daisy very much~!
My lovely Daisy from my precious Darling Ivan.
With Us~
My gifts on Nurses Day: Daisy, Water Bottle, EZlink Card and one GV movie ticket.
This is so so so cute~ EZlink Card.
Now, I'm looking forwards to Nurses Day~ Because I could have free nice buffet and presents!!!
Totally engrossed,
Scribbled by Valerie, pen down at
8/05/2007 08:14:00 PM
