Thursday, January 17, 2008♥1/17/2008 12:25:00 PM
From the day I first started joining NUH OT, Tuesday was my most heartbreaking day.
Not only I'm hearbroken, disappointment invaded my heart as well....
I wonder why am I working so hard when they tend to overlook my sacrifice and concentrate on my flaws.
This is what happened yesterday morning....
~PART I
I was told by someone that da jie was very upset that I didn't stay up for the hepatectomy at 6pm and hence she had to stay for my absence of scrubbing! Hello, madam xxxx I only took about 20 mins toilet cum lunch break in between since 11am to 6pm! If really I took my full lunch break and filled up my tummy very well, I don't mind to stay throughout. So now you expected me to skip my dinner and stayed up all the way to 9pm..? I tell you, NO WAY~!
Correct, that my another da jie said when they were still new, they would stay throughout the operation so that they would know what happened for the whole surgery. Excuse me, I'd tried my super best not to have a break during lunchtime. If only my bladder has unlimited capacity, I'm UNWILLING to let LeeLeng takeover me for 20 mins~!!!!!!! Don't tell me you can tolerate while your bladder is full~! Crap!
So my effort of not trying to go for lunch all down to drain, and my not staying to finish the case being magnified so much~
~PART II
I was supposed to be on morning shift 8am-6pm yesterday, therefore as usual I reached OT at 730am.
I happily enter OR8 as there's a liver transplant ongoing there, hopefully I got to scrub the liver benchwork! So when I started to help circulating, Brother came in asked me if I could do on-call duty today when today is the beginning of my Annual Leave. After what I heard about them commenting that I didn't stay for the previous hepatectomy, I accepted their sudden change of assignment. Partially is because Brother is the one who approached me, and he has been so nice to me so I did him a favourite.
I can tell you frankly, if Brother wasn't the one who approached me, I couldn't see any reason for me to do on-call duty yesterday!! I'm doing it for Brother only.....
Also, I want both of you to feel GUILTY that you perceived me that way~!!!!!!!
All bullshit.
You tell me, why should I work that hard..??
One more time, just one more time.....I will explode.
Totally engrossed,
Scribbled by Valerie, pen down at
1/17/2008 12:25:00 PM
